what can I do? What I can do? What I can do to make myself better?

I have forgotten this corner since my final semester begin and now it was ended.
After finish my course I'm feeling so lazy to do everything even read or playing puzzle.
Being nothing to do and don't want to do everything is really bad and terrible so I decided to work my part time again as an art teacher better than doing nothing at home..
I have no idea why I write this post because I feel like there is nobody will see this and may be they don't even know about this blog's exist. I have been very long didn't do my writing and also just read a few articles only. hmm... so yea... it's January~ my favourite month but I think a few years later it was longer my favourite anymore because I'm getting older. I'm not afraid of getting older I just worried about I have not much time left to do what I wanted to do... I'm a lazy person and love to waste my time. Sometimes it just feeling so right to do the wrong thing but I never regret on the wrong things I did  before. I really miss the old time that I was still in high school... That time I still remember I keep telling myself do whatever I want to do now don't let the future me feel regret but even though I really try hard to spend the good time in high school the future me (now) ain't feel any satisfied I still feeling not enough and always want to go back. I understand everyone need to look forward but sometimes I just hope can go back to do what I've did wrong and make it right. The 21st me is the brand new me.. the feeling of to start a new journey come out from my mind, I'm so scare but yet expecting what will happen to me in the future. I just hope no matter what happen my friends and family will never leave me and always love me. 21st Jie.