Unstable

There is only one word can describe my feeling now...
>> UnSTABLE <<

Ever since I graduated from The One Academy I was so free until now...
Actually, this is what I hope when I was still studying my course, Advertising & Graphic Design.
That's a quite a tough course. I had been stressed and it was a terrible nightmare for me to study there
but there still  have a lot of happy and unforgettable moment during these 3 years.
I was spend my time there from 18-20 year old.. I know that's a lot of things happened on me
in this 3 years which helped me to grow up faster.

I quite enjoy this kind of busy & stressful life like I have to worried about what I have not yet to do
or did I miss out anything? or forget anything? everyday..
bcoz it is kinda like forcing me to grow up, forcing me to be responsible.. etc
But I don't know ever since when, I start to fight with myself. I don't follow what I wanted to do
just keep on slacking everyday when I'm having my last semester.
It's a cold war. I was afraid it would never end...
Until now ... slacking everyday not even done writing or preparing any CV, portfolio...
I was wondering what am I thinking now?
I don't know what I want or feeling lost?
Am I lost?
Seriously, this is not what I will do in the past...
Why making me feel the older I grew the terrible attitute I had?

I found that there's not really much of grateful moment I share with my readers here recently...
I have no readers too...
but who cares...
may be I should share something memorable here like my 21st birthday?
hmm....
feeling lonely now...