Missing My best friend

If 

We got wings to fly

we can only fly to the future.

If 

I still got thing to say but

I couldn't talk to you

anymore

If 

You said you feeling regret 

and you hope that you wish to go back in time

I couldn't help u bro..

I wish I can help you..

but I'm just standing here 

not to see not to hear from you

I'm not don't care of you

I'm just afraid of see you dying

I don't wanna see you weak, feel how you suffer

I knew that you're sick

couldn't reply me as fast as you did last time

in text, I was kidding 

pretend that your condition is still healthy

You're so mad at me when I said that your late reply

I understand why you're so mad at me that's because you're afraid too

don't know what to do

to stay alive

I'm so sorry.

I feel you now

how much you afraid of dying

how much you don't wanna leave this world

but I just couldn't help

I'm useless.. standing hundred miles far away from you

You will still reply me , even when you're god damn sick

I still don't feel appreciate that time

cz I didn't reply you, i expect you will text a lot of your wisdom quotes,

your rap kick, 

the few words that you texted to me...

"whatup sis"

how much energy that you put to reply me in text

how much pain you suffered

I never know.

You're an Angel now i know.. 

cz you're see no evil.

I'm loving the sky everyday as you're living there

A person who love to look at the sky, 

she's missing her god damn best friend deeply inside her heart.

Please forgive me that I din show up

at your funeral, didn't call you to ask when you sick

Didn't reply your text...

Forgive me don't believe that you're sick.

You're forever the special one in my heart.

The one I would like to talk to without thinking

and you're always never mind on my foolish thinking

and said it cool... my god.. damn missing you...

yea, just missing you.