When I downed

I'm just sitting here, waste my time.

Just a sad song accompany me the whole night.

Can't sleep well because once I close my eyes, I afraid...

I afraid u will appear in my dream. It doesn't matter that you appear in my dream it just...

I just ...

I ...

I will not willing to wake up and say bye bye to you.

These day, I really not in the mood to do every things, I don't want to draw my final.

Why I don't want to draw?

It's really important to me and I will failed in the subject

but I still sitting down here and keep on typing this stupid bad emotion post.

I try to cry, may be I will feel not so

stressed after a few tear drops

but I just running out of tear.

No more tear. I'm very very sad.

I'm so useless, careless.

Will I overcome this?

I try to recall some quotes that will let people stand up and keep on moving

Although it works, after a few hours my sad mode activated again.

I hate myself.

I hate the way I live.

I hate the way I can't cry.

Usually I will delete the post like this one after I finish ,

I don't want to let people read my sad things in

my blog

but who care?

Now the world is my oyster and up to me to find my pearl.